cantstopblabbering

i guess i cant stop blabbering.
coz i have this awkward feeling.
inside me.
its something like anxious.
nervousness.fear.afraid.
maybe because im wasting too
much of my time.
maybe coz of camp.
or maybe the horror movie i watch yesterday..
seriously..i had nightmares.
everytime i almost fall asleep..
there are like snippets of the so-called ghost
in the movie..
flashing in my mind..
and everytime my heart beats faster...
remind me NOT TO WATCH HORROR MOVIES at night.
eeeeee.....

DAMNIT.
this awkward feeling is killing me.

ineedanswers!!

school holidays is just...school holidays..

what does holiday means?
this is what i find from dictionary.com
holidays means..a period of time when one does not have to work..
well..so school holidays means..a period of time when one does not have to go to school..
to make things simple..
a holiday is a break from work.
BUT I THINK people dont seem to understand the meaning of holiday..
coz even holidays..
we(students) have to
GO TO SCHOOL
DO HOMEWORK..
SERIOUSLY..
school holidays should be
called..
a-4-week-break-but-you-have-to-go-to-school-and-do-homework sort of holiday
and when anybody-especially teachers
would come with another reason-a prejudice indeed..
that you cant call the school holidays as
a-4-week-break-but-you-have-to-go-to-school-and-do-homework sort of holiday
because its too LONG.

its worthless debating with adults.they think the're always right..
most of all the adults..
NOT ALL.
just want to make this CLEAR coz the next thing they say
not all ADULTS are like that...

WHATEVS.

DONT TAKE WHATEVER i say SERIOUSLY.
except for the holidays thingy i say.
coz im pissed
because i have to go to school.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

desperate scream of help!

next week is SEC 2 CAMP!

oh shh...t!!!!

4days3nightscamp!
I think its too long...
anyway i have this wound on my feet
which im supposed to wear slippers
if it does not heal by tuesday..
the day of the camp
i HOPE(!) that i will get the same grouping
with one of a3ski friends!!!!
HOPE! INEEDYA!

im blabbering rubbish.

~oh the stars have fallen.i'll pick them up and put it back to the night sky.

the end of enjoyment

the beginning of results and the end of me.
if i had a button to self-destruct.
maybe i have pressed it.

tomorrow is the day
where the veil reveal
what is behind it.
the number
that will decide
your grade.
THAT RED INK..
would it be beautiful
or would it be bloody?
would it leave me to tears
of bitter melancholy
or smiles of joy?
only time will tell
if i am destined
to be standing at the top
or will destiny change its fate
surfacing the failure in me
conscious tell me
too much negativity
ugly Fs is all i see
im drowning in worries
would my precious As
disappear?
or would it be happy
to remain on a piece of paper
that tells how i fare
in my exams..
i will never know
only THAT RED INK
may deliver me sorrow
for tomorrow
only THAT RED INK
could return me happiness
that i lost i today
only after this day,
will THAT RED INK
determines how right or wrong
this wandering soul's
doubts and worries
but for now she
prays and hopes
THAT RED INK
will present her the nicest gift
of wonderful As
or a consolation prize
of a B

Sa1 is FINALLY OVER!!

WOoohT! Let us celebrate and burn the textbooks. Maybe not all textbooks, the history and home economics as we are NOT gonna use them for next term ..semester...next year..you get the idea..OOooo...it rhymes...
total rock on ..SA1..is OVER...*wicked laugh*
my "evil" Plans for tomorrow..
GO LIBRARY WITH my cousin and SLACK!
GO EAT dinner with family.

SLACK SOME MORE.
JUST dream on.
I'll be in reverie.
Just smiles on my face.
WIDE WICKED SMILE.
maybe not wicked.
Im a nice person you know.

i have become from a sane student
to an insane girl.

damn.on the bad side.
CCA is starting.
normal school time.
prefect duties.
more studying.
DAMN.
SEC 2 camp.
life sucks.
no.
school is the reason my
life sucks.
maybe not.
they provide me with education
and more education to make me
an intelligent person.
but i believe everyone is intelligent.
its just that i noe how to use my brain.
JUST KIDDING.(on the second part)

I cant "wait" to sec 2 camp.
believe me.

OOOoohhh..im gonna sit beside.....
AGAIN.ok..
so exciting.
im being too obvious..
im not making any sense..
believe me.

whatever it is,SA1 is OVEr...(for now)

~life is full of obstacles.there is like one huge rock in front of you.
then..a river...then..some mountains..some..