obsession and a dead cat

I like this one guy in the class.
Am i making it obvious?
anyway.. a lot people DO KNOW ABOUT IT...
i cant get him out my head...
I am obsessed with him..
CANT STOP THE OBSESSION.
oh.im just trying to
say that GUYS as in BOYS
are CONFUSING.
u think they like u,
n the second moment..
he looks like he doesnt like u..
then again..u think he likes u..
so on and so forth..
you know what im trying to say ..right?
yups.
thats what i am experiencing.
seriously..
i dont what to do.
GIRLS DO NOT make the first move..
they can but they usually appear
DESPO if they did so..
its not natural..
all i can do for now is DAYDREAM.
but i am still concentrating on my studies.
EXAMS ARE LIKE IN ONE WEEK!!
argh..

and did u noe a cat-
a DEAD cat with its head twisted
and bones like coming out was IN THE SCHOOL.
I mean..it happen not so long ago.
but the cat was skinned at its stomach.
so the stomach can be seen...
The first time it happen it was near the exams time too.
As you can see there is a pattern.
it is very mysterious.
it could be somesort of ritual.
if there was not any blood there...the cat
was taken into the school.
MYSTERIOUS.

a despo indeed

There is this guy who likes me but i SERIOUSLY dun like him. He got my number and he send me a message yesterday. I was shocked.terrified. SERIOUSLY. I HATE HIM.
He is such a DESPO. I wish i could get rid of him. I cant believe he told my friend who is in his class that sms me. EXCUSE ME? What the HELL??? I DONT LIKE HIM!!!
I DONT!!! HE IS SUCH A DESPO!!

HE SHOULD KNOW I LIKE SUMONE ELSE!!
DAMN. HE really pissed me off..



Im just one pissed off girl.
In this chaotic world.

whoever gave my no. is seriously...
i have no idea what to say.

i DONT like guys who DESPERATE!!!

UHHHHHH!!

Secondhand Serenade ROCKS!!

I LOVE THIS BAND!!
maybe,the guy/lead singer is not that cute/hot..
but the SONGS ARE NICE!!!
*shrieks*
it might be a bit emo..
HAHA

LISTEN TO THEIR SONGS!
I like the second one MORE!!!

SWEET POEM!!!

Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
Your first sweet kiss thrilled me so
Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
I'll never ever let you go

If you wanted that star that shines so brightly
To match the stardust in your eye
Darling, I would chase that bright star nightly
And try to steal it from the sky
And I would bring

Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
Your first sweet kiss thrilled me so
Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
I'll never ever let you go

If you wanted a king to keep you smilin'
I'd tell the sandman you were blue
And I'd ask him to keep that sand a-pilin'
Until your dreams had all come true
And I would bring

Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
Your first sweet kiss thrilled me so
Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
I'll never ever let you go

And if you wanted a love to last forever
Darlin' I would send my love your way
And my love'd not only last forever
But forever and a day
And I would bring

Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
Your first sweet kiss thrilled me so
Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey
I'll never ever let you go

The Searchers

I FOUND THAT POEM.
SO SAD,I didnt create it though.
never thought about it.
humph.
such a sweet poem.
oh..and that "the searchers" thing..
i think its the person who create it.
I THINK.
WEIRD!
but such a nice poem!!!
MAYBE ITS A SONG!?!!
who knows..

Emo Day..maybe..

i am not emo here.
My dear friend was the emo one.
I would say no further.
Try to cheer up!!!
YOU can do BETTER for other tests!!
JIAYOU!
Its not the end of the world!!

KEEP YOUR SPIRITS UP!!
today we had 3 test results!!
Let's start with the bad news.
i got..
17 and a half/25
for science mock test!
im supposed to get 18!!
but i dont bother getting marks because this
is JUST A MOCK TEST
whereby the marks are not counted for
Ca1!!
IZZY will be sad though coz she is the highest
with 20/25 but too bad its not counted.
sheesh
okie...next is MATHS!
i SO HATE MATHS!
i got 21/30.
THAT IS BAD!
I am below average by ONE mark.
SHEESHHH..
THE BIG GREAT LOVELY NEWS..
I GOT THE HIGHEST FOR HISTORY!!!!
37/40!!
I SO LOVING IT!
THEN, my teacher ask me to take
HISTORY!!!
i am so CONFUSED!
me take history??
i JUST DONT KNOW!!
arghh..frustrated..

ohhhhh...I tried to be a responsible monitress!!
LOLS. i mean people are complaining so much..like *someone*..
ehem ehem
ohh..this is what i did..
I asked my fellow classmates to HURRY UP to the hall..
I helped to clean the whiteboard with MIN YI..
I asked the girls to go for ET faster
I asked them to sit down.
I picked up the litters in class.
I also distributed the form papers and
DID NOT leave Samuel to do everything.
...
I hope i wont be HATED for SHOUTING too much..
but i try to be a bit gentler..
anyway my shouting is like CRAP!
haha.

oh the guys in class play a game.
called strip game.
thank god nobody REALLY STRIPPED!
HAHA.

Im so slacking.
I need to do homework!!
yes.tomorrow is friday...
shoosh..i havent practice my guitar too!!!
that's all yo!

CIAO!

~BE happy because in that way, you hae nothing to be sad about.

im trying...

im bored.
i went home as per usual.
with min yi,izyan except today aisyah was not with us.
They kept talking about balls.
sheesh.
i was involved too.
HAHA.
i means balls are balls.
Ok.
im crapping.


the results for my science test SUCKED.!
15/20..
Yu Xun got
17/20
damn.
DAMN.
got to do something about it.
this is NOT good.
oh.what happen to teenagers these days.
their minds are polluted.
sheeshh.

oh..im going to release my anger.
prepare for domination..or whatever..

Fed-up.PISSED OFF.frustrated.
Am i invisible?
maybe i dont exist.
i might as well i just give up.
you think you're so good?
fish off dude.
im pathetic.
sorry i can only be myself.
dont you know anything?
dont you know how i feel?
of course you dont.
you know what.
i might as well give up.
dont you know how to filter your words?
of course you dont.
u dont have the SENSE to do so.
you dont see what i do.
my efforts are simply..
INVISIBLE.
you dont know anything..
but you keep saying stuff
as if you know everything..
what is up with you?
you're pissing me off.
i guess im invisible.
or simply i suck.
you know what..
i'll show you attitude.
im just one pissed girl.
prepare for full blast angst.

~dont you know im trying..

All worned out

Im tired from school
im so stressed
yet so relaxed.
im procrastinating
always.
Im supposed to study for home econs and
promised to play comp for 1 hr but im 10mins late.
i still dont give a damn.
i'll study later.
i cant be bothered yet im worried sick if
im going to fail if i never study.
lately,i've gone crazy.
maybe because of school and exams.
Maybe,i wont be the first one anymore
but i dont care.
i've changed.
maybe.
i never was so obsessed of how i look
but now i am.
im FAT.
i cant stand it.
somehow i have to be confident about myself.
i dont understand why do people come in different sizes.
Cant there be one?
Im so sick of myself.
I dont know why.
Life is killing me.
slowly and gradually.
Im haunted by my own thoughts.
with all those 'what ifs..'
I keep looking at myself
at the mirror..
criticizing the way i look
while praising how beautiful
other people are.
Maybe i should be anorexic.
I'll suffer but I'll be thin.
I'll be happy to not eat.
Somehow,something tells
me NOT to become
an anorexic.
Something is telling me its not worth it.
I'll never be pretty.
At least i have confidence,I HOPE.
I suck.I simply suck.
Maybe,im lost.
No one loves me.
except for my friends and family.
One drowning soul
seeking for love.
THOSE COUPLES are making me SICK.
maybe envy is taking over me.
insecure.jealous.uncertain.
THAT'S ME.
so fragile.
im about to break
and no one is there to prevent it.
Im all dented.
I lost myself.
I cant find myself.
NO maps to guide me.
I need hope.
those lights are fading.
everything is going black.
my problems are drowning me.
I cant seem to find something to hold onto.

maybe i have hope.
i haev to keep on searching.

After all,
I lost myself
but im not gone.

Leaving Earth

oh,the sky is bright
in the darkness of the night
and I stare at the moonlit sky
oh,how i wish i could fly
up to that moon
leaving Earth all too soon

saying goodbye to the world i live
those nightmares i shall leave
and dreaming only sweet dreams
like eating chocolate ice creams
eternal happiness i achieve
the distress i was relieve

the earth itself is very scary
filled with disasters and catastrophe
so to the moon i'll go where peace can be found
not a war,not a fight,not a disaster all year round
no fear,no sounds of sirens,no news of a bomb
a serene surrounding-not a thunder or storm

the moon i'll go for the world is in a mess
with humans living in distress
there are parents who are fighting
while the kids are left crying
while others strive for greater power
just to fulfill their every good or bad desire

and who knows love may perish
there will be nothing to cherish
so do treasure your the friendship
before all the hate starts to whip
for i realise there is love in friends
but i do not hope an ending even though
friends ends with "end"

oh,the sky is bright
in the darkness of the night
and I stare at the moonlit sky
oh,how i wish i could fly
up to that moon
leaving Earth all too soon

~Asyiqin

i created this poem and i was inspired by the moon.Awkward it seems.
In this poem I am trying to say that the world is scary.Firstly, your own worries are haunting you. THEN..There is war.There is nathural disasters.There's no peace.
WHAT ABOUT LOVE..you know where im going right??

ARGHH...screams again

Love is like drugs. it leads to addiction. you can never get enough of it. but somehow im sick of it. oh...and there is one guy who likes me but i do not like him. i know the feeling of rejection but i really do not like the guy. i can do nothing of it and let him admire me from afar. I DO NOT LIKE HIM. I KNOW THE FEELING OF REJECTION and i was able to get over it so why cant him? dont say im a BAD person to be ignoring sumone who likes me but hey, i dont like him and as long i dont be SARCASTIC, be THANKFUL.

*STEP ASIDE FROM LOVE*

There will be tests next week .

Even though not much homework is given,

we still need to study.

We cant have a break.

Im exaggerating.

we do have breaks. NOT MUCH.

there are prefect meetings...

so i still have to stayback.

THANK goodness..

i have no remedial

even though im not smart.

IF i have to attend remedial

i wont be sitting here blogging.

I guess remedial take a lot of our free time.

Science was fine.

I UNDERSTOOD what the teacher taught

but many of us DO NOT understand

what the hell the teacher was saying.

BUT that doesnt make me smart.

You think im being humble?

im not.

its really true.

i believe everyone is intelligent

because everyone have brains.

the only thing is that how they use

their TINY WEENY brains.

I use it well, i guess.

To me,

Life is a tortuous path to happiness

but one can make it through

if he dared to struggle

and to believe in himself.

oh,my wise side came from nowhere.

as you can see you suffer when you run 2.4km

for your NAPHA test..

but if you to put up a struggle as in you push yourself

and to believe you can make it thru..you'll do great.

and the end result would be of satisfactory.

SATISFACTION=HAPPINESS.

TA-Da.

The WISE (who is me) has spoken.

HAHA.

I told my secret to 3 person.

Can't i keep my mouth shut?

Obviously not.

oh..my dear friends,especially izy,

have become more pervertic.

sorry to say, they are horny.

Trust me im not one of them.

maybe i am..but do know im not

as horny or pervetic as them.

they tell sick jokes.

maybe i did but mine werent as

PERV. as theirs.

BEWARE of one of my friend who

LOVES to slap people butt.

it is not sexual harassment though.

or is it?

unlikely

or likely?

do not confuse

for as long its not sexual harassment,

its fine.

what have happen to our generation.

their minds are turning yellow.

no longer innocent.

but full of dirty thoughts.

do know that BOYS are far more worse than girls.

they are FAR more perv.

enough of this.

now...I LOVE JASON MRAZ.

(JASON MRAZ IS A SINGER)

he's not that handsome or cute

but hey he got the words yo.

the lyrics to his song are poetic

and sweet,melodic and BEAUTIFUL.

trust me.i fell in love with his songs.

TRY AND LISTEN TO "IM YOURS"

and fall in love with it

unless your taste in music is like mine.

oh.let it rain.let it rain.

IT is raining.

and i have nothing else to say.

its time to say goodbye.

CIAO.

~Life is short.Dont ever waste it.