Always Busy..and a few more secrets.

Life is hectic.
Never once there was a free time for me.
Staybacks,projects,homework,test,CCAs and so on
just fills my schedule on its own.
I have to pull the National Flag every Monday
and the timing has to be perfect.
Never thought there was perfection.
They say nobody's perfect
but people are always aiming for PERFECTION.
Can't they stop it?
No.I can't either.
its something we have
as a human.I think.
History test went just fine
with a score of 34 out 40.
Not bad.
but when people say not bad,
does it mean good?
or if its not BAD,
then its BAD?
dubious i may be
sceptical it may seem.
do i make sense.
maybe not.
Meet the parents.
i never liked them.
i find it a waste of time.
if the teacher would like to have a say
about a student-because of his or her marks,behaviour-
he or she can pick up a phone and call.
its not even wasting our energy.
just money.
but money is NOT a problem.
I have to do duty as a receptionist tomorrow.
both morning and afternoon.
AGAIN,my schedule's tight.
The LONELY one I'll be
when i'm doing my afternoon receptionist duty.
I hope I won't be dreading alone.
my dear min yi has no duty.
afternoon duty my dear sarita is free.
left me alone like a cat on a tree.
if you know what i mean.
sometimes i make no sense.

SECRETS.and MORE of them.
I'll promise to keep them.
IF i ever broke it,
please forgive me
as my intentions was not bad.
Secrets are hard to keep.
and when you did not ask me to keep them,
I might spill.
the other may not know of a secret i knew
from another fiiend.
i wonder if you understand.
its just hints and clues.
but that's all i can give to you.
I have my own secret(s)
but I'd rather keep to myself.
until you prove you are trustworthy,
i shall tell my secret to thee.
but you should all know
secrets-new or old
are never meant to be told.
are only meant meant to be kept.
for now,shush in silence.

~they say time heal all wounds but actually you are the one who really healed them.
so be proud of yourself.

Humphh

BACK TO SCHOOL AGAIN!
good friday is GONE!
as well as my weekend!!
Bummer.
I hate SCHOOL!!
oh fish.
I cant handle sec two life
and HOW
am i supposed to handle sec 3 yr?
Shoot me.
Im dead.
OH!!!!
x-country sux!! (4 me!)
i planned to get top 50.
and i end up get 181!!
WOSRE THAN LAST YR!
not because i slacked PURPOSELY..
i went SICK in the middle of running.
i had slight headaches and BAM.
i felt like vomiting.
my face went pale.
SARITA was very scared that i would
just puked there.
so she asked me to go to the SJAB point.
SJAB people ask me take deep breathes.
then i drank water.
then I CONTINUED RUNNING...
despite not feeling good.
I REALLY DONT WANT TO BE 200 hundredth over.
BUMMER.
oh bummer.
in the end..
I REALLY WANTED TO PUKE.
I WENT REALLY PALE!!!
and izy and aish was like ARE U OKAY??
i was like im fine..
HAHA.
bummer.
DAMNDAMNDAMN.
i wanna be top 50.
BUMMER.
THERE IS STILL NEXT YEAR.
remind me not to eat too much sweets.
YEaaaHH.bummer.

okie....u noe people always ask what u wanna be wen u grow up...rite..??
so here i am thinking bout it...what i wanna be?? i never knew..but..
MAYBE....i wanna act..or sing...SIMPLY PERRORM...yea..i like that idea..if i cant sing..i'll act..So i guess u think im having BIG DREAMS..I enjoy acting.i can be a different person. if i sing..i can express feelings thru songs...hmmmm...haizz..its just dreams..im hoping it'll come true....

~Its never wrong to dream.Just dont get overboard if u noe wat i mean

Is it You-Cassie

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

ADDICTED!

ARGH.
Im addicted to the song Amrita by Yui Makino.
Its the song in my blog.
Ohhhh....GIVE ME IDEAS FOR CLASS TEE.
I have some ideas..so YARR....
LOL.
OHHHHH..WISH ME LUCK FOR x-country!!!
OKKIEEEE!!!!!
JIAYOU!
CHIONG!
WATEVR!!
WEE!

P.S. THANK GOODNESS WAI LOON DONT KNOW MY BLOG!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!

amilame?NO!

at sarita house!!!

me and izzy!!!

more PHOTOS!!

and MORE!!
me and izzy


izzy and aishah..so cute. sarita NEw hairstyle

IM TIRED OF WRITING WORDS AF TER PICS SO I STOPPED.
HAHA!
anyway.those pics were taken when we were at sarita house doing swiss sci project.anyway..sarita was so PISSED that day.
AND DONT remind about the swiss science challenge.
PATHETIC.
i mean me and my group.
grrr...

whatever.so.um.
today.is um.
the last day of my air rifle enrichment.
so UNLUCKY.
all my aimings out.
Grr.
and i saw
CATS umm..
u know.
mate.
HAHAH.
too bad i didnt took the pic.
LOL.
it was so,
FUNNY!!! HAHAHAHA (laugh people)
ooooohhh...
OMG!!!!
that Qra ,Qra sweet..whatever u call it..SOLD IN 7 ELEVEN..
IS NOT HALAL!!!!!
ARGHHH
i ate it. >.poo-ey
it contained false pork skin.
Eww.
no offence.
OMGOMGOMGOMG!
im excused though coz
i didnt noe about it
NOT being halal
at the time i eat so..
yar.
GRRRR
next time im going to check the ingredients.
BLoody CRap.
tomorrow cross-country.
plan to run the whole 3.2km.
but sure got walk one.
Must not be NEGATIVE.
ARGH!!!!!!!!
JIA YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!
MUZ GET TOP 50
....
so sad i got 100+ last yr.
must stand in FRONT.
people block.
crap .
wish me luck
and i'll wish
you LUCK.
HAHAHA.

LOOKING FORWARD TO:
GOOD FRIDAY

who doesnt?

Life is Hard

Can you see the panda's face? He(let's just take that this panda is a he) is struggling to get his head out of the woods/logs.I can really see he is worried.He looks sad too.I really hope someone helped this panda.I just cant see those sad eyes.
Im just trying to say life is hard at some points of life.You get stuck and you cant get out of it.You have to struggle your way through and this is currently what i am experiencing.Im struggling thru my sec 2 life.If im having troubles now,i wonder how i will cope with sec 3...ok..maybe im being too emo.But hey,emo is normal.at least i dont slash myself..and never will..Honestly,LIFE IS HARD. Who would not think so? People who say life is easy is a freak of nature.Im struggling with school projects,homework,guitar lessons,revision...and there loads more to do.Im trying to balance all of them and its like juggling balls (DONT THINK DIRTY!!)...but for now,those balls (DONT YOU EVER THINK DIRTY!!) keep falling..I have to pick them up..continuing trying till i get the hang of it.
TIME FLIES.
and when its gone,its gone.You cant turn it back.Its so easy to WASTE time.while im typing this,seconds after seconds is gone.From seconds it becomes minutes then to hours...and i still have not done homework.
well,i will do later but as you know humans procrastinate..we aint perfect but we try to be.
Im not perfect.
But I'll keep on trying
to do whatever i can
to be good at it-studies,CCA,guitar
whatever it is.
Its worth the try.

~Learning requires making mistakes so if you dont make one,you are not learning at all.

Envy

I am so ENVIOUS of those who can play the piano,violin whatever musical instrument.Im so green with envy.I have guitar lessons but honestly i suck at it.I want to play the canon in D major but im at the noobie state so i must wait patiently till i am more experienced in it.Ohh..how i wish i was musically talented.

Btw,holidays sucks.i got 13/20 for science quiz in LMS.I suck REAL BAD.whatever it is..ITS HOLIDAY.MY SUCKISH HOLIDAY.oh may we indulge it.=-=!

the holidays just begun

Its the holidays but I don't think it should be call a holiday.I have CCA on thurday and friday.I have science consultation on tuesday and an english one on wednesday.I have to do project after that-The Swiss Science Challenge and my literature dramatisation.With that,it's a hectic holiday.Did you know our teachers are trying to "kill" us? My homework is piling.It's like a mountain of worksheets.I'm not the only who will be suffering of course.It will be other students as well.Let us suffer this holiday but at least I can wake up late. I'm sick of waking up early.I'll be having panda eyes AGAIN when school reopens but for now i shall foget about school.I think that is quite impossible because the homework will remind me of SCHOOL.I have to study hard and work hard so I could catch up after the school holidays after slacking for too long.

I guess I let my emotions get the better of me.I was so insecure because im not pretty and i kept thinking about it.hating myself every second.feeling unloved but now i realise im special the way i am.I dont need to act different or be a different person just to be loved.someone who loves me will love me for the way i am.i should be grateful for the way i look,huh?Everyone is beautiful in their own ways and you cant change that fact.

~Love is like a doodle by Van Gogh-your lopsided circle may be a masterpiece to someone else.

I AM SO EMO! BOO!!HOO!!HOO!!HOO!!

I failed my science test.The great depression hit me.It hit me in the bullseye.My foolscap I wrote "the Young and Depressed" ..and that will be telling you I'm depressed.I got 45 out 100 and a girl like me have HIGH expectations.It might be the holidays but I don't think it's a time to relax.Teachers gave loads of assignments and I decided to go for science consultation.There are CCAs and meet-ups to do projects.Life is nevery easy i guess.

There's never a shorter route to take-only winding and long paths.There are always obstacles coming your way through.You will probably struggle to that destination you want to reach.That's life for me.

I think I am going to stop now.My eyes are blur and I am tired.Tired of everything-school,tests,ccas..EVERYTHING..

I shall tell my "beautiful" so-called Ca1 results tomorrow.

Hope the next day will be than this and no tears shall come pouring down.It's not over.I can do better than this.I don't accept failures.I will never stop trying.never.

Ciao.

DEAD

im so dead becoz of my letter writing test.ARGH.dun ask what happened.SO PISSED OFF.
maybe i will write good english next time in my next posts.FAT HOPE.

~so pissed off with myself.and maybe other stuff too.