pitifuL

Im not perfect but a perfectionist.
No one can see that.
I need to get straight As.
Coz I have no talent and am not pretty.
All they see in me is a smart arse girl.

They Think Im Studying Hard.
But Im not.
Took out the books.
But i fall asleep just studying two pages of it.
Someone else might be studying hard when im asleep.
I only study at night.
Last minute.
Somehow i manage to pass with flying colours.
Its not magic.Its the only way i survive.

They think im kind and innocent.
But im not.
yes,i help people.
but helping people benefits me.
I do wrong stuff.
Its not like dreamed i wanted to be kiss by a guy.
I lied.
I always wonder how its like to get kissed.
In my religion,im not allowed to get kissed till i get married.
But i kept on wondering in my dirty little mind.
I do right stuff.
But inside, i wish i was a rebel.

i wish to be those pretty girls.
Giggling while guys just stare at them.
i envy them.
I kept saying guys love them for their looks.
That's not true love i always say to make myself feel better.
But like as if i have a true love.

i love someone.
But he never notices.
He always teases and so-called flirts with me.
I know deep within he likes me.
But it confuses me when he never even do my favours.
i hate that i love him so.
Coz he is only breaking my heart.

I try my best in what i do.
i want to be a all rounder.
good in sports and studies.
Thats the reason why i chose floorball.
Its a torture but i bear it.
i take responsibilities with my choices.
im not the best floorball player.
but at least im not the worst.

I have friends.
Many of them.
both girls and boys.
i love them.
i thought i was a loner.
but my friends make me feel i belong.
belong where?
dont know.dont care.
best friends forever but how come..
the word 'end' is in the word 'friend'?
i don't care.I love my friends even
though friendships may not last but
i believe they will.

i have a family.
Not a perfect one but a happy one.
Im quite lucky coz im born in a middle class family.
So we dont have problems when it comes to money.
a fine HDB flat and a fine car.Im grateful.
two cute cats.
they're my companion at home when
im alone.

im not a forever-happy-bubbly girl.
though im smiling almost every time.
im laughing.yes.but my mind is drifting.
to the sad moments and memories.
but i'll never show.

questions marks are all over me.
who am i gonna be?
what's my future like?

Broken-hearted but no one can see its shattered pieces.
never wanted to let him know how i feel.
coz i bet he'll avoid me.
i rather stay off coz im gonna get scolded for hvaing
a boyfriend.But no one can stop a girl from falling in love.
No one can stop me from dreaming.

im an average girl.
living in a normal boring life.
I wish i could play a piano or a guitar.
or become a singer.
but it just wont happen.
its just me and my boring life.
But i believe everyone is special.
Im special in my own ways.
My life is extraordinary in my own ways.
Who cares if its boringly extraordinary.this is my own life and story.
Im the one who's gonna end it.
so whatever u do,love me for me.
NOT for something else.

yesterday seem so NOT far away!

ok..yesterday paper 1 is fine except the fact that my letter writing sucks..OMG..im so dead..watevs.nvm..its over cant do anything anymore...rite...well tomorrow sunday and i have exams for my religious class.haizz..so many things to study yet got time to play and blog..LOLZ. oh and yesterday me,izzy,aish,kavya,lynette,shi ying and the sisters went to library to do CIP hours..we did shelving and book shelving..watev. that means..LOLZ..nothing just borrowed some manga...oh ya..we did CIP for three hours..the auntie is VERY kind...we did the shelving at children section which is quite boring coz i wanted to do in the teenage section.!nvm..yah thats all..WAIT...wei ker keeps pushing my chair during exam ..when the exams is like 5-10 minutes to end..he started pushing my chair...kavya and izyan saw it anyway...TOTAL irritating! and CRAp..and he even said the word noob during the paper..and i was like blowing up at my seat..haizz...even after exam finish oso he very irritating!!! and izyan keeps saying that he or we were flirting which is so not true..its more like IRRITATING!!.oh and that young jun ask wei ker if he is interested in me ..PULEEZ...which guy would say yes anyway..DUH he said no..and wei ker is SO DAMN RUDE...wen young jun ask me how i fund him(wei ker) i cant even say anything coz wei ker snapped at me and SHUT UP....how dare he...and i cant believe i like him..ohh...that sumthing wrong wif me..sheesh..such a bad taste...sian.....but i still like him..more sian..hahahahahakz. i have to bear h is irratating-ness till exams are over! MAYBE NOT!.

Go mE!

ok...SHOCK..not really..BUT GO GIRL! i beat SAMUEL in maths..for CA2 ONI..(no worries sam..u'll be the highest in maths still coz my SA1 and CA1 SUX!)I got 92 and he got 90..2 marks higher..LALALA..go girl! Sam was like "i cant believe asyiqin beat me" and he was like "i hate her.." hahahahaahahhh...totally kicked his arse in maths ca2...but still my english sux...i'll try my best though....history ca2 i got 85..same wit izyan...2nd in class..wen liang is 1st with 86..then in eng we watch the movie waterboy. which is totally funny and a bit dirty...i think...SO FUNNY..watels? oh..me,izzy , aish ,sar sar and wei wei and jansen help to arrange chairs..wei ker is a total pain in the neck..well a bit oni.he was like dropping my bag off the chair but he picked it up..LOLZ..THX..jansen u ARE SUCH a gentlemen coz ur like so helping us arranging chairs unlike bing kai..who so escaping from the scene!and watelse.?oh wei wei is so teasing me man..eee..feel like kicking his arse off..but thx coz ur like helping me too...oh and ummmmmmmmmm..IM SUCH A BAD GIRL!!!! i touched his hand but NOT HOLD..did i?watevs. i dunno why i did so.not hand..was it..his arm? ..sort of.i was like pushing his hand away...and i 4got why i was pushing his hand away xcept he was teasing me bout sumthing. i did dat like two times...his skin quite soft leh..like as if he wears babylotion..hahahahahah... im freaking I SHUD NEVER TOUCH ANY GUY ARM,HAND,SKIN!!!!!!!! NO!!! im still innocent!!!
TO SARITA,IZYAN,AISHWARYA,WEI WEI,JANSEN...THX FOR HELPING IN ARRANGING CHAIRS!!oh ya..at the end he asked me to help him to give the CCA cert/CIP thigny to ms ho.. he said he will help put vlass diary then..then i said no..i'll put diary coz finding ms ho takes a longertime..than jansen laughed..HAHAHAHAHA..POOR GUY!!..so love kicking his arse!!Izyan..we ARE SO NOT A COUPLE..i mean me and wei wei!! WE R SO NOT A COUPLE..and u told me u enjoyed seeing couple..dunno wat...nvm..we r NO NO couple!
P.S. WE ARE SO N-O-T flirting!!!!!!!!

life as per normail..nothing much..ooh...xcept for me recoding MV instead of like doing revision..and thinking bout guys who is total heartbreakers some time..and sick of it..i keep repeating..4get it...JUZ NOW IZYAN STALKED THE GUYS AS IN IZZUL BING ZHI ZHENG YONG WAI LOON YU XUN!! SHE ALSO TOOK THE SAME MRT!!!! WAT A STALKER!! honestly..we were not stalking in the beginning after all they are going in our direction...lamoz....they walked faster than us ..we sort of follow...but PULEEZ..me stalking guy..HAHAKZ..well actually sort of..BUT IZYAN IS THE ULTIMATE STALKER!!!!DUn get the info wrong..the guys may be my type but im not much of the stalker IZYAN is...wooht...LALALALA..im so darn innocent..talking bout innocent...Bo Jiang ask me to tear Jared lit package..i said what..i cuz i didnt hear it well..DEN...the JARED say she wont lah..she very kuai..as in the goody goody girl..im far outrageous..I DO NOT LIKE TO BE KUAI!!!!!!.....walao..that jared i tear for real then he KNOW....oh then i ask for PPT form then i describe it as shit...then jared heard it then he say to yu xun to eat the shit..HAHAKZ
P.S. YU XUN U CANT COPY MY HISTORY >>OH AND U R THE ONII GUY in CLASS GOING FOR THE PPT TRAINING ..good LUCK!!! HAHAKZ..DUN WORRY u CAN TALK SHIT WIT ME..ahhahahahaahahah..LAME!

Life on the bright side!

Ola de aloha! lolz.SWEET VICTORY! I mean..i got 44/50 for history..2nd in class! damn that wen liang for getting 45..JKJK...well can't blame him ..It's left to the exams to beat izyan in history..heehee...*sorryz*for now its percentage ought to be equal...well..the lit. drama was fine..not the highest..r we? we got 24/30..altogether..watevs!Wei Ker says i look retarded in the shrek's ear thingy..umm..my friends wud know wat they r..cant find the perfect word..c'mon..a guy like wei ker has no guts to say 'cute' to a girl...hahakzz...perasan jer eh..mwahaha..which means me shiok alone sumthin like that.but honestly...wei ker..hahah...he retarded..HAHAKZ..jkjk..btw..i hate that i like him...cmon lah i dun even noe WHY i fall for him..girl..do i have issues with my eyes...i mean wei ker so not a cute guy..his like siao siao type..maybe he is a bit cute..a percentage of 25% ..hahakz..and he screams like a girl..woohh...high pitch voice..HAHAKZ.he has like pimples..eeww..pimples are natural..i mean his condition is like acne..okok...from afar his oklah..up-close nah-ah..*shakes head* he so shud wear creamm..lala...if he wants to attract sum other girls..LOLZ.Im sick of guys u know....GUYS is like they give u 'sort-of like u' signals by teasing/flirting with u...then suddenly the girl/u fall for him ..then suddenly u realized..he may not be into ucoz when u ask him a favor..he jus says NO. unless u beg and plead till blood tears appear..wait..thats exaggerating .watevs.i mean my friends who are boys are so much gentlemen..LOLZ>.<.but im still happily single..haizzz.......good news...i tink..im not the captain..or else i hav tons responsibilities....watevs.btw,Bo Jiang ask me to tutor him..hahakz.im no good teacher..im juz a good learner..LOLZ..poor bo jiang..hahakz.OH ya.since he heard i have no tuition and i said no wen he ask if my siblings taught me...he joked that my ancestors helped me during exams..lolz.then jared said wen u die..u help ur descendants...LOLZ!!
P.S.I love U MOI FRENZ!! rmb dat..aish,izzy,kavya,sarita,(U ALL REALLY ROCK!!!)..........other VERY DEAR FRENZ OF MINE!!! BOjiang,zheng yong,jared..U GUYS ROCK!..lalaalalala...
P.P.S SARITA cheer up!! kkaez..ur history marks is ok!CHEER UP KKAEZ>>u can do better!!. IJUZ NOE SO!!!!!! BELIEVE PPLE HAVE FAITH..
i sound like a retarded person here...

Funny vids-i so love this guy humor!!!!

AKon-lonely..>.<

girlfriend song-lolz

B-u-t-4-ful girls

me love

Good vs Bad[not evil]

oooohh..for the first TIME ever i got 36/40 for my malay compo..COOL..Da-di-Da....LEMME MAKE THIS CLEAR.....I DO NOT LIKE WEI WEI!!!NOT LOVE EITHER....I ONii treat him as a friend..why im saying this coz i heard sarita and izyan whispering ..n aishwarya..really....suspicious...hmm..btw..loads of HOMEWORK..crap...haizz...then sunday muz do CIP hours by sorting books in the library..haizz...and me im fasting...wahh...die seh man.....TIRED u noe today..i chong.....during ET....then i thirsty liao...can die....wooshh..ok im complicated..honestly..do i like wei wei..??alamak...this thing come out of nowhere......DO i not like wei wei.......?DUNNO SIA...i need answers..argh..cant find them...nyaa~~ help me...i dun WAN to like wei wei..coz i DUN wan to haf a bf....bcoz its very complicated..i dunno wat is..i sort of like him..BUT IM REFUSING TO LIKE HIM....i juz dun wan to like him..nvr....n wei wei thot i like izzul =-=!!! no!! HECK NO ..i dun like izzul..im not lying..watevs.haiz..complicated...but who cares..im happily single..enjoying life oh and today went up stage for getting the medals we won in sports fest for floorball...cool...i was like the first girl to go up!..eeekk..nervous sia...im doing well in my studies so far...GOODY GOODY ME!.hahakkz...where's my bad side?

test

Try tis test out.....grab pen n paper.....u must ans each qn....
1. You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house. There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but is very plain and boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderful sights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get to your signigicant other's house, short or long?
2. On the way you see 2 rose bushes, One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend, of any color combination. What number of white and red do you pick? (you can pick all of one or any combination of the two)
3. You finally get to the house. A family member answers the doors. You can have them get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself. Which do you do?
4. You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?
5. Later, it's time for bed, You and your boy/girlfriend go to sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up you go in his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive, is he/she awake or asleep?
6. Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain road or the longer, more interesting road?
****** my answers ******
The road represents your attitude towards falling in love. If you take the short road, you fall in love quickly and easily. If you take the long road, you take your time and do not fall in love as easily.
I took the short road coz i can't wait to get there.AND true i fall in LOVE easily..
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The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return. For example, if you chose 18 red and 2 white, you give 90 and expect 10 return.
I give 15 red rose and 5 roses..giving white roses quite unusual thats why i give 5..so basically the percentage...( idun bother to count) u shud know lah..
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This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems. If you asked the family member to get your significant other, then you like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves. If you went to get them yourself, then you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.
the family member will get him for me..its not my house anyways..
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The placement of roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend. Placing them on the bed means you like to see them a lot, while placing them on the windowsill means that you are alright with not seeing them as much.
woosh..i put on the bed liao...
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This representative of your attitude towards their personality. If you find him/her asleep, you love your boy/girlfriend the way he/she is. If you find him/her awake, you expect him/her to change for you.
asleep..bcoz if he awake already..he muz have woken me up
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The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone. If you chose the short road, you fall out of love easily. If you chose the longer one, you will tend to stay in love for a long time.
I chose longer road.

humph!

tomorrow got HISTORY test..im so studying last minute..damn i cant concentrate...because of my eyes..they like heaty eyes..somesort of sore eyes except its not red...gosh..it feels like burning..dang..cant concentrate..maths homework havent finish...haizz...muz have got "sore eyes" from zheng yong..hahakz...watevs....im bored to death..it results in me laughing for no reasons..dang..my eyes are burning...i cant concentrate..oh yar...i forgot how to simplify algebraic equations..so need a recap...i muz study...tomorrow there is study group..honestly i dun wanna go..but muz give reason..hmmm..i ask mummy whether it is good to go for the study group..haizz.....im currently feel sick..i dun hav fever but i juz dont feel well..hmmph...sumthing wrong with ME!!..cu mi nga! nyaa~~LOLZ

GR8! NOt!!

omg...can't stop posting..hahakzz..i realized i may fail my eng test essay writing for putting the wrong question..nvm..must try harder...sheesh..hope so not..I so dun wan to fail..ok..now im wondering wat i wanna be wen i grow up..i dun wanna be a doctor,lawyer,teacher....a pilot..no way..hmm..wat i want to become..an artist...i cant paint juz draw...an actress..i have no experience in acting...singing..my voice is so the average...a writer..haha..my eng sux..an architect..hmm..wat does this person do??haha..i dun even noe...a chemist yea...but that job is boring..a businesswoman..i dun think so..i dun like to deal with business..a fashion designer..cool..pls sumone teach me how to sew clothes..
Potential career:fashion designer,chemist,architect....da-di-da..but i would love to act...fat hope...
yups..im thinking to the future..so polytechnic...or Junior collge..i would love to Republic poly..and i would love to go to National Junior College..wait..what is an institute..the Millenia Institue..hmmmm.....haizz....think too much..

hehe..cute conversation of Jansen..haha..he so cute liao..

this cute as the baby cute...not the cute where girl use for a guy..haha..ok..Jansen is so cute..ok..well lemme tell u wat is so cute..ok i send an email to everyone saying that i change my email..then i sign off your classmate,asyiqin..(if u dunno me,im gonna whack u)...then jansen actually reply jokingly..ok..
Jansen's Reply:i dunno u..pls dun whack me!!!
My reply:u dunno me....OK.....*whacks jansen*..pain?? LOL...*whacks some more* remember me ?? LOL...dun tell me u dunno me seriously
Jansen's Reply:ouch!! that was sure pain! but.... i really dun noe u!! i think im going to call the police for child abuse!!!
My reply:Oooo..i'm VERY scared...by the way u cannot report it as child abuse...we're of the same age..haha o n if u dunno me then how come u haf my email add??
Jansen's reply:dunno... is u tok to me first what.... so now i say i dunno u lor!
if i cant report u , then ok lor... i will just tell my MAMA!!!that u bully me!!!
My reply:........i tok 2 u first but by then u shud know who i am wat!!......
oh..u will tell your MAMA....she doesnt know me...and...hehe..how can a girl bully a boy?hehehe

SO im awaiting his reply..dun u find him cute...he says MAMA...isnt that cute..awww...what a guy... behind the rough texture..his quite cute..hahakz

fast..not fast as running fast

ok..i'm not gonna get angry and thou shall not tell lies..lol...this is the month of fasting for the muslims..yea..not allowed to eat or drink for i dunno how many hours ..im not bothered to count the hours..the month to remove our sins...ok..lets talk bout sumthimg else..oh yesterday...E.T.(running like mad dog period) we ran 6 rounds and even those who fast need to run..i tot im gonna die but know i didnt..and then got cca ..floorball..and i played despite fssting and feeling so giddy..i tot i wud be resting but i played on...i felt like im going to faint or die..but miraculously i didnt..i actually even scored goals....hehe..i was so happy that i played despite fasting and feeling like dying..it made me feels stronger sumhow..lately nothing new except the fact that my english seem to sux...no offence to myself..im juz not very good in english...im better in sci n maths n other subs..but not eng..its a no-no for me...but i'll try my best for exams...yea..ok..so far so good i mean my life..Bo Jiang and Zheng Yong are so funny...i laugh everyday in my seat..though i sortof dun like to NOT seat wif izyan..Bo Jiang and Zheng Yong U ROCK!!...hahakzz...Jared..ok lah...he seem quite but at least he talked..we're friends..i think ...duh...My best-guy-classmates ever..Zheng Yong and Bo Jiang..hahakz..wee....im so glad that they treat me like their friend..i think...and make stupid funny jokes..lalalala..i SO LOVE my friends..AS FRIENDS...that includes my girl besties..u know hu u r...:)

Da-di-Da..im quite happy n contented..for no reasons....

Da-di-Da..im quite happy n contented..for no reasons....well maybe coz i passed my Eng formal letter writing..with a score of 21/30..i tot im gonna do it badly..i got highest in class 4 maths test...29/30..tmr got another maths test..muz study...then malay test...i did fine....yea....yesterday floorball i tot i very bad....lousy...but no...i dunno why my coach me put me to play wif the sec 3s...the pros....i was so SCARED...eee...my coach keep shouting get into positions..very scary..liao..ok lets talk bout today..well..I hate the part where i need to write who walk around in the class..then gary was like asyiqin biased lah..then justin was like im innocent....Young jun was like u dare? i was like i dare..very irritating u knoe..i dun like this kind of job writing names of people who walk or talk its so like pri9mary school and damn childish...haizz...wat to do im the monitress..i gotta do wat i gotta do...im not being harsh its juz my job so srruy palzz...ok...wen i return hoem ..i wan to take mrt then this kavya nad asih pull my bag to take bus..they pull.....n push..blah..looks like im getting bullied here..lolxx....then i was struggling to their hands of my bag..then there public people..bet pple look at us like a freak hope they dun complain we r such barbaric students..we r so not..anyway im getting bullied here..so puleez..dun scold im juz fighting my way thru which i did win..hehe at the end the bus arrive i decided that they can leave the bag with them they decided to carry the bag in the bus..and me i didnt care...i knew they wudnt dare..i tink..then they still decide to bring it in the bus then i say..im so gonna tell my mum then they leave it there..the bus driver sort of honk..lol...da-di-da..dun mess with me liao..
warning :pls dun make me angry by irritsting me..u havent really see me in full rage..i'll be swearing n kicking ***es...wooosh..u wudn want 2 see me like that..i've been like that wen my elder bro with me alone and he was irritating me..i was in full rage..n toally slamming doors...kicking tables..shouting like mad girl..eehh...its been a long time since that happen...so dun make it happen..its suc a hideous side of me...i tot weiwei knew....but then wei wei call me girl like nth happen..cool we're still friends...hehehe..

pics of me in the library

pics takne in the library..lalalala

mie?..

kk..sumthing i got...lalala
Is your birthday day 14 of the month?

Your Life

You are so confident that sometimes you forget about the people around you.

If you have to be in one of the two teams, you will choose to be in the

winning team. On the other hand, you are kind and caring but above all, you

care for your own benefits. Your imagination is

unique and often gets implemented shortly after it comes across.

Your Love

You will not get soft with the one you don't really like, no matter how hard

he/she tries. But once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no

getting back.

ta-da...me..i dunno whether its true or not..coz i dun really choose team that will win...as in floorball...i mean..honestly i'll go with sum1 im comfortable with...i'll go with my beloved friends...i wudnt really go to the champs..coz i am afraid i mite bring them down...my imagination unique??yea..maybe
"But once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no getting back"..REALLY?? sometimes lah..not all the time...

saturday..already and HAPPILY SINGLE!

yup..time flies...VERY FAST...faster than a rocket..hahakz..ok let me make this clear to everyone..I NO longer like any guys...i am honest...im at crush-free zone and happily single..WEEE...no more thinking about guys..yea yea...i mean i keep crushing on guys and now one left to have a crush on...hahakzz...ok.homework not done. plan to do it today..and finish today as well..yea..dats all..not much..really not much..i hope tomorrow i can go swimming with my cuzzie...yea yea..ummmmmmm....ohk..im taking guitar lessons after sa2..wooht...oh yea..i totally love this book, the traveling pants....its about friendship,love,family....VERY NICE TO READ...the story very touching....hehe...ok..dats all pals..TTFN which means ta ta for now

this is my official blog

Ta-Da...this blog is OFFICIALLY my only blog..i think..LOL..